My Rainbow is Here

It has been so long since I last wrote but my rainbow baby is here...and has been for 2 months.

Nate Jr

7/10/15

8 lbs 8 oz | 20.5 in

I look at him and can't believe that at 43 years old I was able to give birth to a healthy, beautiful baby boy. I struggle still to not question why the same was not true for my angel Lila but I have to believe that there is a plan and this was part of it.

Life has changed a lot since he arrived.  Our home has always been pretty crazy with 5 other kids but now we have a baby and it is a big difference.  The 2 youngest are no longer the babies of the house and I think that has been a bit of an adjustment for them.  Luckily the kids have all been pretty helpful and love him.

When I found out I was pregnant my first reaction was a little bit excitement but a ton of fear. Although I felt pretty good throughout my pregnancy it was the most stressful one I have ever had.  Every appointment, ultra sound and test I worried that something would be wrong.  But getting through it and holding him in my arms has truly given me a sense of peace and love.  He has brought a lot of healing to my heart. 

After losing Lila my husband was ready to get a vasectomy but I was not.  I asked him to wait just a bit till I was OK with not having another baby.  I was just about at that place when I found out I was pregnant.  After we got over the shock we were both absolutely thrilled to be having a baby. He truly is a gift to us. Our family is now complete.