Everywhere Butterflies...
Shortly after terminating I would see butterflies everywhere. At first they were not actual butterflies but pictures, on a bag at my therapists office, on a cartoon the kids were watching, on a t-shirt my step daughter was wearing.
Lila Rose...
This may seem crazy to many but I really started associating butterflies with her. I felt like it was her way of letting me know she was ok. That I did the right thing. That she was in a good place. That she was still a part of our family and she would watch over us.
In Memory of Her...
I have never been a tattoo person. Not that I was ever against it for other people, I just never had anything significant to have tattooed on me. But after Lila, I wanted to have something special, in memory of her. I would have loved to do footprints, like I know others had, but I was not fortunate enough to have a print of those, so a butterfly was an obvious choice. I searched everywhere for just the right tattoo and I found my favorite on Pinterest. The tattoo artist I worked with added her name to it and I put it on my right shoulder blade.
I love it. She is always with me.
~Christine
I think of you when I see a butterfly and what they represent. I love it!!
ReplyDeleteYour post makes me tear up because I saw butterflies too - particularly the yellow ones - after I went through my termination. I always associate them with my son. I like to think he is up in heaven moving them about somehow, perhaps like a marionette, to say hello to me. I miss him so much. Time is helping, but I expect I will always feel this hole in my heart. I keep reminding myself that I did this for him. I took the pain so that he would never have to.
ReplyDeleteI read this post at some point last week and when finished, went outside and immediately saw a butterfly. It gave me a sense of happiness and peace and I have now been equating butterflies with good thoughts and memories of my baby. I am 3 months out from our loss and have been searching for something like this to help me remember in a positive and peaceful way - thank you so much for helping me with that.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for this comment! I am so sorry you are going through this experience too but so glad you found some peace in reading my blog. Sending you love and light.
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