Angelversary...
Today is Lila Rose's angelversary. In some ways I can not believe it has been a year since we lost her. In others, it seems like only yesterday I was pregnant with her.
Over this year, I have tried to figure out why this happened to us. I have seen therapists, spiritually healers, intuitives, mediums and psychics....all to help me deal with this and figure it out. Honestly, the greatest healer has been time.
Conclusions...
I have concluded that Lila was never supposed to be on this earth. Her journey was to experience the love I/we felt for her when she was inside me. And I think her purpose was to make Nate and I a family.
She allowed us to put away our fears of blending both families and just focus on becoming one. And you know what, it was the most amazing gift. Merging our family has been, dare I say, easy. Of course there have been ups and downs but I feel like our kids are truly happy.
And even though she is not physically with us she is still a big part of our family.
For Lila.....
Lila Rose, Please know you are so loved and missed.
~Christine
The WHY I think is the hardest part at times. I had to just have faith that it was for a reason. I may never know completely the reasons, but may be someday I will. Your insights and thoughts are so beautiful. Thanks for sharing them.
ReplyDeleteThe why is the hardest part. I think this is the hardest thing to go through but if you can find a reason....it helps ease the pain.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind words.