Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

Did you know that October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day?  I didn't know there was such a thing until I became the 1 in 4  who has experienced a loss like this.  It certainly isn't fun being the '1'  but it is nice to know that I am not alone.

With every day, week, month that takes me further away from the day my daughter was born/died I heal a little bit more but I never forget her.  I see kids that are the age she would be and I think of her. How my life would be different, better, with her in it.  My kids still think about her too.  We go to Target a lot (did I say a lot!)  and they just have the cutest baby girl clothes, right?  My daughter Olivia often comments "Lila would have worn that" or "Lila would have been cute in that".  And she doesn't say it in a sad way but in a sweet, honest way.   And I just give her a hug and reply "Yes, she would have, Liv."

When I was pregnant with Lila, the day before I went in for the ultrasound that would tell us if she was ok or not, i saw a psychic (I know, a little out there).  I asked her what she could see with my daughter.  She said she did not see anything bad. She was strong, protected. She saw my daughter as being my best friend and that she would be with me till my end.  Of course, that was not true for Lila but what I came to believe is that perhaps what the psychic was seeing was my relationship with my beautiful daughter, Olivia.

On this October 15th, I ask that you take a moment to remember those who have experienced a loss like this.  And if you are a '1' know that you are not alone.  And maybe share your story with others - friends, family, coworkers.  You never know, you may be helping another '1' heal.

~Christine