Stuck in Grief

Good days and bad days...

Some days are better than others could be said in general about life but the words have a deeper meaning when you have lost a child.  There are days that really feel normal.  I can appreciate my beautiful kids, my loving husband and my happy life.  But.  I seem to still have many days when I can’t find that.  The sadness of grief is still deep.   I wonder when and if that will ever pass?

Paris...

I recently went to Paris for work.  I was able to do some sightseeing and it was amazing to see these historic monuments in person…the Eiffel tower, Notre Dame, The Louvre but I couldn’t help but feel a quiet sadness when I saw mothers with their babies in strollers.  Babies that were the age Lila would have been if she were here.

Grief...

I guess after a year I realize that the grief will probably never go away but I hope, as time goes by, I am better able to deal with it.

Maybe the grief helps you appreciate all the other amazing things about life and the experience of loving the child that never lived in this world.