Gosh, it's been a while since I have written. I guess I have been spending more time living instead of being stuck in the past. A good thing, right? So much has happened.
The school year ended....
Time goes by so fast! CJ, my youngest, turned 5 in April. He still has the smallest amount of baby face left. I cherish the moments when he is peacefully asleep and I can really see that sweet, softness in his face.
Vacay...
I took an extended vacation to my home state of Michigan. There is something so soothing and comforting about being home. I love taking my kids to the places I have enjoyed in my childhood and seeing it new, through their eyes.
Kids on Lake Superior (there was still some ice way out there!)...
I have to mention that while we were on vacation there were many times when we would see beautiful butterflies floating near us. Of course it warmed my heart to think that Lila's spirit was with us.
Time after time...
I am about a year and a half out from losing Lila Rose and it's hard to believe but I feel almost normal. Don't get me wrong, it has been a long road...lots of work for sure with many ups and downs! ...but as women who have been through this before told me,.it does get better. If you are reading this and you have been through what I have been through...know that it will get better. In time, life does go on. I don't regret the pain I experienced or the sadness. It honestly pushed me to become a better person. To deal with past issues, to face fears and to survive. I feel like I also appreciate things so much more now.
I know I would not be doing as well as I am if it were not for my husband. He has been so patient, supportive and understanding as he went through all of my ups and downs while dealing with his own. I feel very blessed to have this man in my life...
We will be celebrating our anniversary very soon.
Happy Anniversary, My love!
